Artemis' Haven

           I realized my worth after hurting myself. I didn't know my worth actually... after hurting myself and God made me realize how I am settling for less. I realized that the one who hurted me is myself. I let people treat me like that.      This was the most painful realization I've ever felt. LEtting myself be treated like that. Even myself, can't believe that I would be able to say that I am already finished with my current relationship. I came to the point where I don't want to be treated like someone, just someone. I always beg for attention and time, not knowing that I should not be doing that. Because those things should be given without asking for it.     It's not easy to leave the person, but I also love myself. And I should give to myself the things I deserve. I am not sorry for doing the hardest decision; I did it because I love myself, I want to fix myself, I want to receive the love I deserve. I did it because after repeatedly hurting myself, I re

" Let's stop crying over the 'should have been', move on... your blessings are melting." New chapter begins; it's not easy as there are a lot of things, people who I have left.     I left them because it's necessary, it's for my growth; This is the only time I became selfish for myself. I felt bad for making this kind of decision but I know, I need to learn how to stand on my own two feet; I too know to myself that there are a lot of things I need to fix (my behavior and attitude towards someone whom I dearly love (before)), my principles, my career, my relationship with God and myself.          When I realized that I am compromising my worth, I stop manipulating myself to believe that it's okay to settle for less, because the truth is... its not okay; definitely. I realize my worth after enduring the same cycle.  after leaving the past behind me, I have soooooo many realizations that if I write it on a single piece of paper, it would not be enough